Season One - Ep. 9

The party...ok...
well...
Sadie and Alexis were there, talking. Sadie was talking to Alexis and acted like she did nothing with me. SO finaly, after a couple beers, Alexis invited me into one of the bed rooms.
"Alexis...What are you doing?" I asked her.
"I can't wait longer. Be a fucking virgin makes me wanna scream." She said.
I thought about it. "I'm not gonna have sex with you if you don't love me."
She kissed my neck and whispered in my ear, "I do...I've always loved you."
She began to hug me, I hugged her back.
"I want to show you how much I love you." She said.
"That means I'm gonna lose my virginity. It's not like somethng I could just get back." I said to her, thinking about what this would do.
"What, you don't love me? After everything I heard you say? That you love me?" She started to walk to the door, angry.
I got up and grabbed her by the arm. I whispered in her ear, "I love you...I love you so much."
She layed down on the bed. There was a box of condoms in the drawer. I put one on, and showed her how much I loved her. I had lost my virginity.
After that, I didn't know what to do. The sex was over, but I decided, I loved this girl. So I held her, held her close. I knew she would find out about Sadie, and something terrible would happen. But I didn't care about that, I juts wanted this moment to last forever.
We finally left the room. I had shown her my body, and lost my virginity to a girl I loved. I couldn't really believe it. It was nothing like how....doing it yourself was, if you know what I mean.
So Sadie wasn't there when we came back down from the room. People knew what happened. Most of the guys at the party looked at me and smiled. They knew.
FOr the rest of the party me and Alexis just held each other. I found out she lost her virginity to me also. We were together. And I wanted Sadie to be out of the picture. I regretted letting Sadie give me head.
So I went hoem after that. I told my brother. He congratulated me and said I was "a real man".
I felt like I had suceeded. I'm finally with the girl I've always loved. She's so beautiful... Now all I had to do was make sure Sadie never spoke to Alexis ever again...and that Sadie wouldn't think I still love her...SHIT. I told her I loved her....fuck fuck.......fuck.....
This isn't fucking good.