Season One - Ep. 7

So I went to dinner with Sadie. As we were walking back home, she justs stopped me in on the sidewalk, shoved me to the wall and started kissing me. Her lips were warm, and her tounge was warmer.
I let her do it, I decided, "Why wait for Alexis, if I need someone so badly?"
So we madeout, on the sidewalk, for about twenty minutes.
Finally, a cop told us to get out of there.
So I walked back to her place, arm around her.
She invited me up to her room.
Then, she kissed me on the bed. She pushed me down and started to take off her top.
"Sadie, listen..." I said to her.
She said, "Queit. You won't be for long. My parents are in Florida."
I let her go.
And she gave me head. That's all.
I mean, how can it feel really good if you don't like the person.
Don't get me wrong, it was better than chocolate in many ways, but what if I really love Alexis?
Then me and Sadie just sat there. I looked out the window.
She looked at me.
I wanted Alexis. I ruined everything.